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Mei shiang, the one i know from ns camp who is cool and cute.. We have always been together when in the camp and have became very good friends just within that short unforgettable and memorable period.. I have been missing her a lot since we out camp..

She is now studying form 6 at St Georges and taking physics which is same as me!! Haha.. In fact, we have the same interest.. And what she likes the most is her rubik’s cube ( i am not sure whether the spelling is correct or not ) !! And she has always taught me and nicole how to enjoy playing with it.. I have learnt a lot from her and i really appreciate her for being there with me, supporting, helping and accompanying me in that short while..

Due to her appearance, many roomates have been asking her whether she is a tomboy or not, but she just smiled at them.. She is so cool to let others have that kind of thinking but the truth is of course opposed what the others are saying.. yet, she doesn’t really care about what others are saying about her.. She is a shy person, nevertheless, she is kinda sporting.. And she is very good in sports!! That’s why our dearest Siti always asked her to take part in the sports competition!! Haha.. Though sometimes she is forced, but she will always try her best for our ALPHA company.. Having a teammate like her really put a lot effort for our company to become the best!!

Anyway, i am writing this blog about her in order to let me recall more about her as i don’t wanna forget this best friend.. I really, really, really miss her a lot!!

i thought my best friend will accompany me..

in fact that isn’t the truth..

i know she had been so pressure in her study..

i can forgive her..

but now she just message me and throw all the things to me..

i really feel so hurt because of her..

what she ask me to do i done already..

and i always help her because i don’t want her to feel more stress..

i always hope i can reduce her pressure..

but i really cannot stand anymore..

though not in a good mood, yet i need to do my job..

but now no one will listen to me anymore..

and i don’t know whom i can trust..

who is willing to help me? i really cannot get the answer..

now, only alone and helpless..

Today my school had an assembly..

Discussed about H1N1 with us and told us what we need to do to prevent from suffering H1N1..

After that the school’s admin let us listen to Micheal Jackson’s song!!!

You are not alone…

At that moment, i suddenly think of one of my best friend who is away from Penang for further studies..

Besides, i saw my junior started to stand up and care for cw..

Really glad for that..

However, i don’t know when will this situation can be continued..

Hopefully she becomes tougher and faces the consequences with optimism..

Yesterday something happened on my junior..

I knew it from someone..

And now i feel sorry for her..

I know this will hurt her a lot..

As she really sacrifice a lot for cw..

I knew it and really appreciate that much..

Now i really don’t know what i can do to help her now..

Same as my senior..

Just i hope she can think more positively..

Think from another point of view..

And i bet she will benefit from it..

Today i have a small meeting with two of my juniors and one seniors after school..

This was really a serious talk..

And we discussed many problems in CW..

Though many problems cannot be sloved just by ourselves..

But i believe with this kind of attitude..

We can solve “some” problems..

But then when we discussed until half..

Suddenly, my junior say something..

And that ended our discussion..

Sigh..

7th june..

NS closing ceremony..

After a month, finally have chance to go back to Kem Syruz!!

I really so glad to go back there..

Looking forwards to meet my friends…

The sweet sour memory that my friends and i went through there really unforgettable and memorable..

Today i really have much feeling as i saw them who are same company with me really did better than before..

Feel so touch seeing them really work hard for our company..

As this is what we always wish and dream for..

And finally the whole company did it..

That made me feel that what we have been doing for our company all this while really worthwhile..

Although i didn’t participate for the last month..

I really appreciate them for doing their best and finally..

ALPHA become the best company!!!!!

All hard work paid off..

I bet the teachers sure so happy..

As at first they felt us not keen in doing anything..

And considered ALPHA as the worst company..

But now we have proved ourself to be the best!!

ALPHA is the best!!

ALPHA fantastic!!

Best company!!!!!!

Such an important award to us…

Today when i saw them..

Many of them came hug me..

Really so happy that time..

That they still remember me..

Haha..

And today i saw some of them crying..

It’s really sad to leave all the friends as we have been through so much…

Helping each others..

Supporting each others..

Taking care of each others..

Carrying our daily lives together..

Though it just a short time..

But that meant a lot..

And that short while made me feel it’s so precious..

I am so glad that i was forced to go ns..

As that really let me learn a lot..

Especially the friends i know from there..

I have learnt a lot from them..

And really appreciate them much..

Now..

I feel so glad that i have been in ALPHA company..

I love ALPHA!!!

Today is the day i come back home from ns camp..

I really feel sad to leave all my friends there..

I miss the days we worked hard for our company..

Cheered for our company til our throat pain..

Tried our best to let our company become winner in every competitions..

Cooperate well to let teachers see our integration between races..

Took our the responsibilities together til we didn’t even need a duty list for our dorm’s cleanliness..

That’s why i really appreciate my friends..

Even though with the friends from different companies..

We really have a great time together..

Quarreling and fighting between each other for our own company..

Running from our own company to other company to talk with friends..

Everyday being scold together..

Standing really straight, waiting for the ketua kompeni to lapor..

That time really suffer, bt now miss that time..

Really miss my friends a lot..

When wanna leave..

I cried..

I try my best to stop my tears but i couldn’t..

Really hard to leave without sadness..

But then..

I am really happy to know a lot of great friends who can support me and always be there for me..

Really appreciate that..

Haix..

So sad..

After a few days i am going to be away from penang..

Although butterworth is also counted as penang..

But i am away from my sweet home, friends and family..

Though my family keep on quarrelling..

But i still prefer being at home..

Doing what i like..

It’s difficult for me to live without friends and family..

Because i am too dependent..

It’s time for me to be independent and do things on my own..

But now i really no mood for that..

How can leaving my friends and family make me feel happy?

I promise..

I will try my best to adapt to the new environment..

Hoping god will bless me..

After such a long time..

Today finally came..

I was getting nervous as it’s going to be 10am..

Although i don’t want to reach school so early..

Because i don’t know what will i feel if i get bad results..

As a human..

I naturally feel nervous..

As i walked into the hall..

I know that i was getting near to the truth..

Which i wanna get rid of it so much..

When the prefect gave me my SPM results slip..

What i saw really surprised me!

I thought i will be getting a few B’s..

But then the results slip printed that i get all A’s!

I stopped at that moment..

Immediately saw through the name column..

It’s my name!

Fortunately..

The prefect didn’t take the wrong results slip for me!

As when i took PMR results 2 years ago..

The prefect gave me d wrong results slip!

And that results slip belonged to my ex-classmates who transfered to and didn’t take the PMR exam in my school..

So the results there written all T’s.. i think..

But luckily..

Not mistaken!

I calmed down myself and counted how many A1’s and A2’s i get..

8A1’s and 4A2’s..

It’s still ok with me..

That time i feel very happy as i have prayed so much to get good results..

And i guessed my results is counted good already..

For my standard..

But now i suddenly confused about my feeling..

Tomorrow..

12th March 2009..

Is an important date for me and all friends who same age with me..

As all know..

It’s the release of 2008 SPM results..

After such a long time..

Results going to be out soon..

Til now i still don’t know what will i feel with my results..

I don’t know what results that i hope for..

I don’t know whether i did my best or not in SPM..

I really not confident this time..

Not same as before..

I tell myself to be confident..

Especially in front of juniors..

Because i know i must be confident before i can guide and help them..

What will my results be?

This is really a big question mark..

I cannot give myself an estimation..

ARGHH!!

I wanna go crazy already!!

Help!